As I’ve mentioned in a previous blog post, all of my posts are inspired by something. I don’t like to write a post just to write one. The goal that I have every time I write something on here is to feel refreshed by the end of it. So here I am.
This post here was inspired by tears. Ever have those days where you just want to cry? Today is one of those days. But I think it’s healthy to have those days. To me, there are few things more satisfying than a good cry. So when I cry, I write. My blog is my main form of therapy for allowing myself to put things into perspective.
If you have been an avid reader of my blog lately, you have probably noticed that this semester has been a pretty stressful one for me so far. I have dealt with things that have challenged my emotions in a different way than anything has ever done before. I often find myself in constant conflict, unsure how to handle certain situations. There is a part of me that would like to brush everything under the rug and kind of just move on with my life and there is also a part of me that wants to keep reaching for reasons to hold on to something has far sailed away from shore.
One of life’s toughest challenges is figuring out what is worth it and what isn’t. What are you going to choose to fight for? It’s literally that hardest thing to do. We are constantly making decisions every second of everyday and they all essentially fall under the “what’s worth it” umbrella. But when the situations get complex is when the challenge arises.
So, how do you figure out what’s worth it? You don’t. That’s the most annoying part. There is not way of accurately figuring out what is worth it because even the most rational people in this world are driven by emotions. When you decide what is worth it you are ultimately deciding what you think will make you happy in the long run. But there is no determining what the “long run” will hold. Your long run is defined by what you imagine it to be. But, we all know life rarely provides you with what you think it will. Life is that surprise party that you love and hate all at the same time.
So, what do we do now? We got thrown into this life where we are asked to make constant decisions in a fairly short period of time that will change our fate and there’s not a formula to help us with how do to so? Correct! Sounds pretty sucky to me. But the more I think about this the more I’m realizing how much this world would REALLY suck if all of our life problems could be solved by doing some math. Life would be too predictable if that was the case. Our brains were meant to think, meant to dream, meant to make mistakes, and meant to make complex decisions that can’t be solved by a mathematical equation.
Stop defining your life by the “long run” and start defining it with what you can emotionally handle. It’s perfectly OK to say something “isn’t worth it” and then maybe decide it is worth it later on. You might not get the outcome that you wanted, but if life always gave us what we wanted we’d be more self-indulged than we already are.
I’ve made plenty of decisions that I wish I didn’t. I often expect more out of people than they give and I’m way more emotional than I’d like to be. But I’m proud of myself and proud of the life that I have created so far. I’ve made way too many wrong choices and have stressed out about things that I now realize weren’t worth it. If you are constantly categorizing your life into what is and what isn’t worth it than you will leave yourself in a constant emotional turmoil. Live a happy life, and all these wrong choices will eventually look like the right ones. Live your own life, and live a life that will create a beautiful person inside and out.
The best advice my mom has ever given me is: “Don’t let them win.” By “them,” she means anything or anyone that will ever make you stray from the path that you want for yourself. Not letting “them” win is what makes every decision you make in your life worth it.